Tonight I finished work an hour early, which is great for me but not so much for my bank balance. I’ll suffer that at a later date. It was an insufferably quiet night in the restaurant, so I suppose I wouldn’t be missing out on very much. After leaving the bus, I walked along the West Overcliff Drive down towards Alum Chine. I could almost feel my body relaxing into the comforting firmness of our sofa.
The temperature outside is dropping and the mist is rising. The street lights are blurred by the ghostly fog that hangs in the air and there is a very definite eeriness in the dark. Lately I’ve been feeling like my mood is completely governed by the weather, and the way the weather has been over the last few days, my mood hasn’t exactly been brimming with cheer.
I was born in April – an Aries. The first sign of the zodiac and a month of natural beauty and rebirth. Trees are stretching out their fingers after a long wintry sleep, with buds of blossom filling their once naked branches. These are the days that cheer me up no end, the ones filled with sun – they make me look forward to the summer.
However, summer and indeed sunshine seem to have taken a step back from their leading role in the seasons these days. A fleeting moment that’s over before you know it. Spring seems to be more like summer. Last year, I sunbathed more during April and May. June, July and August were more grey than blue and more rain than sun. Happiness turned quickly into a frustrated sadness, with SAD setting in more quickly than had been hoped for (not that I enjoy feeling sad).
It’s now a few days later and my mood and the weather have fluctuated a fair bit. The sun decided to show his face this morning, and being that it’s my day off, I decided to walk myself to Westbourne while it lasted. I’m now sat facing the window in Elsie Harrhy, a local coffee shop that serves delicious homemade slices of cake with a perfect cappuccino or tea to accompany it.
With the sudden break in the gloomy weather, it’s quite amazing how much more uplifted one feels. Maybe it’s the sun, maybe it’s the ginger cake. For now I’ll convince myself that it is in fact, the weather creating this remarkable change in my mood. I just wish that Rob didn’t have to work today, as he could be sat here with me enjoying this little moment of unadulterated happiness. It’s a small thing, but I’m a firm believer that it’s the small things that make all the difference.
Later on, after I’ve got the food shop out the way, I’m going to trip down to the beach and enjoy the sun while it lasts. Maybe I’ll sit and watch the sun set over the sea. Bournemouth beach is a great place to sit in peace at this time of year. The few tourists that do make it down to our beautiful stretch of sand, barely set foot on our end of the beach. And all the better for it.
The last few crumbs of my cake have been picked from the old china plate, and I’m sipping down the last dregs of my cappuccino. The grey clouds have rolled back across the sky again – I think it’s time to make tracks back towards home. Seven more hours and he’ll be home again. As I walk back down Alumhurst Road, I press play on my iPhone. The National starts – Sorrow. It seems befitting of the sudden change in the weather.